me in one word… x 35

30 04 2008

got it from brewster and jay… so here is mine… only one word answers (copy and repost on your blog if you please). This is me, in one word answers only:

1. Your cell phone​?​ .​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……….Crackberry
2. Your signi​fican​t other​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​TBD
3. Your hair?​ .​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…Disappearing
4. Your mothe​r?​ .​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​..Strong
5. Your fathe​r?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​..Dedicated
6. Your favor​ite thing​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​​Music
7. Your dream​ last night​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​Prophetic
8. Your favor​ite drink​?​ .​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​Americano
9. Your dream​/​goal?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​Influence
10. The room you’​re in.​.​.​ .​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.Bedroom
11. Your talent ?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…​.​Passion
12. Your fear?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​..​.​.​.Failure
13. Where​ do you want to be in 6 years​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.Content
14. Where​ were you last night​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……….Party
15. What you’​re not?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………….Sure
16. Muffi​ns?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…………………Nope
17. One of your wish list items​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……….Revelation
18. Where​ you grew up?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…………..Joplin
19. The last thing​ you did?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………iChat
20. What are you weari​ng?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……..Shorts
21. Your TV?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…………… Conchords
22. Your pets?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………….. nope
23. Your compu​ter?​ .​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………… Miggity-miggity-mac

24. Your life?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…………….Unwritten

25. Your mood?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………..Chill
26. Missi​ng home?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…………Home?
27. Your car?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……….Paid-off (I know that’s two words)
28. Somet​hing you’​re not weari​ng?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…….shoes
29. Favor​ite Store​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……….​Best Buy
30. Your summe​r?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………​busy
31. Hate someo​ne?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……….nope
32. Your favor​ite color​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​………​Black
33. Last time you laugh​ed.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……​Today
34. Last time you cried​?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​…….Yesterday
35. Who will re-​post this?​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​……. Anyone?

the sorrow of God

30 04 2008

one night a friend asked his handicapped son, “daniel, when you see Jesus looking at you, what do you see in his eyes?”

after a pause, the boy replied, “his eyes are filled with tears, dad.”

“why, dan?”

an even longer pause. “because he is sad.”

“and why is he sad?”

daniel stared at the floor. when at last he looked up, his eyes glistened with tears. “because I’m afraid.”
the sorrow of God lies in our fear of him, our fear of life, and our fear of ourselves. he anguishes over our self-absorbtion and self-sufficiency. richard foster wrote, “today, the heart of God is an open wound of love. he aches over our distance and preoccupation. he mourns that we do not draw near to him. he grieves that we have forgotten him. he weeps over our obsession with muchness and manyness. he longs for our presence.”

God’s sorrow lies in our refusal to approach him when we have sinned and failed. a “slip” for an alchoholic is a terrifying experience. the obsession of the mind and body with booze returns with the wild fury of a sudden storm in springtime. when the person sobers up, he or she is devastated. when I relapsed, i had two options: yield once again to guilt, fear and depression; or rush into the arms of my heavenly father — choose to live as a victim of my disease; or choose to trust in abba’s immutable love.”

…. excerpt from “abba’s child” by brennan manning

we are made of love…

30 04 2008

“Needle & Thread” (by Sleeping At Last)

When the world welcomes us in,
We’re closer to Heaven than we’ll ever know.
They say this place has changed,
But strip away all of the technology
And you will see
That we all are hunters,
Hunting for something that will make us okay.

Here we lay alone in hospital beds,
Tracing life in our heads;
But all that is left
Is that this was our entrance and now it’s our exit,
As we find our way home.

All the blood and all the sweat
That we invested to be loved
Follows us into our end,
Where we begin to understand

That we are made of love,
And all the beauty stemming from it.
We are made of love,
And every fracture caused by the lack of it.

“You were a million years of work,”
Said God and His angels, with needle and thread.
They kissed your head and said,
“You’re a good kid and you make us proud.
So just give your best and the rest will come,
And we’ll see you soon.”

All the blood and all the sweat
That we invested to be loved
Follows us into our end,
Where we begin to understand

That maybe Hollywood was right:
When the credits have rolled and the tears have dried,
The answers that we have been dying to find
Are all pieced together and, somehow,
Made perfectly mine.

We are made of love,
And all the beauty stemming from it.
We are made of love,
And every fracture caused by the lack of love

ever growing, ever changing

27 04 2008

when i first set out with the gideon chronicles blog, my intent was to have outlet exclusively dedicated to some of my more “purposeful” and significant thoughts, musings and/or ramblings. i was feeling like I needed to narrow the focus of my blogging somewhat, and the blog you are reading is the result of that desire.

however, i have lately been thinking about this approach as well as the fact that i actually have 3 blogs… this one, myspace and my music blog, flava in ya ear. my blog and thoughts have been kind of segmented and it has had me thinking about life and how we can tend to segment and compartmentalize our lives, sometimes feeling overwhelmed because of the pressure to keep all the plates spinning, independently of each other. i’ve been thinking lately how absurd it is to think that we have all these different life elements that we try to keep separate from the others as if they don’t feed and flow into and out of each other. i recently heard someone talking about the term “faith life” or “spiritual life” in the context of people using these terms like they are actually separate and independent from the other elements of their life. after all, what parts of our lives aren’t spiritual or faith-centric?

that being said, i am going to be broadening the scope of the gideon chronicles a bit. sometimes i’ll be sharing something particularly purposeful, but i will also be sharing from the other pieces of me and my life that all flow into one another, making me uniquely me. it might be music, art, culture, humor, relationships, love, random thoughts, pictures, stories or any number of other things… but all together, they are the sum total of who i am striving to be and of the life i am learning to walk out every day… ever growing… ever changing…

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love one another.

the great tragedy

25 04 2008

the great tragedy is not mainly believers in Jesus continuing to commit acts of sin. the tragedy is that satan uses the guilt of these failures to strip you of every radical dream you ever had, or might have, and in its place give you a happy, safe, secure, american life of superficial pleasures until you die in your lakeside rocking chair, wrinkled and useless, leaving a big fat inheritance to your middle-aged children to confirm them in their worldliness. that’s the main tragedy. – john piper

two basic loves

25 04 2008

“there can only be two basic loves,” wrote Augustine, “the love of God unto the forgetfulness of self, or the love of self unto the forgetfulness and denial of God.” the fundamental option arises from the core of our being and incarnates itself in the specific choices of daily existence – either for the shadow self ruled by egocentric desires or for the true self hidden with Christ in God.”

excerpt from Abba’s Child, by Brennan Manning.